About


Hi, I’m Jasmine,

And I am bipolar af. (Among other things.)

Mental health advocate. Warrior of Mental Illness Awareness. Dog mom. Lover of glitter and mermaids, and all around whirlwind.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar II only a few years ago but I knew I suspected it for a while. I had suffered with mental illness all my life but was never formally diagnosed with anything other than depression. I was put on and off different anti-depressants multiple times. Most of them made everything worse. They increased my manic episodes, they made my depressive bouts so much longer.

I was then additionally diagnosed with anxiety, mild Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Depression (ironic…) and PTSD from past sexual abuse and rape. Then just for shits and giggles, Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome with Infertility and an-ovulation.
I started this blog as a personal therapy outlet to release some of the memories and feelings I had suppressed for so long. They had started to bubble up into traumatic flashbacks and panic attacks so I needed to do something.

I entered weekly therapy. I started medications, and I began this life-long journey to recovery.

Then something beautiful happened. Through my own battles of darkness, a light appeared. People reached out to me. They told me of their own struggles, their own fears, their own darkness. They told me I was helping them. I finally found my purpose. This blog is no longer for me; it’s for all of you.*

Remember, you’re never alone.

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Anyone who is suicidal should call 911 now and receive help from trained mental heath professionals. If you are having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming yourself or other persons, please immediately call 9-1-1 or your local or national Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
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