I’ve made it my MO to basically put it all out there. I have friends and family who regularly read this blog but I decided from the very first post I wrote here that if I posted at all I would post one hundred percent honestly. Raw and unfiltered. Is it too much?
I’d like to think it isn’t. Everyone is so triggered these days it’s hard to tell. But I won’t water it down. This is the reality of mental illness. It’s not pretty, it’s not some romantic thing like double suicide in Romeo and Juliet.
It’s painful, confusing, frustrating, scary. Some days it is all consuming. You misjudge things. You lash out at people you love. You make stupid impulsive decisions that hurt people and you only have so much control over all of this.
Some days it is all that can do to keep fighting. So no, I won’t sugar coat it. I won’t water it down. I won’t make it less graphic. I’m not here to write a fantasy. I’m here to tell you the truth. And it’s ugly sometimes.