So I looked into publishing a book of poetry through Amazon. I have an acquaintance that did just that. He self-published his book and sells it online both paperback and e-book. This is something I have always wanted to do since I was young but the price stopped me dead in my tracks. I was thinking along the lines of $400 maybe $600. Boy, was I wrong. I feel shattered. It’s more like $1700.00 While this is something I could probably save up to in the future, like maybe four or five years down the road, I was really hoping it would be more affordable and I could do it so much sooner.
Part of me thinks, what’s the point? I’m not that good of a poet anyways so maybe I just don’t do it. No one would want to read my stuff anyways but there is this part of me, this very small part, that says I have to do this. Before I die at least. It is my bucket list to have at least one published book. Even if it doesn’t sell. Even if my mom is the only one who buys it. Even if it sucks. I just have to.
I feel like my life will not be complete until I do. It is something I have wanted for so long, to see my work in print on my shelf. In an actual book. In a store. So now the question remains, do I go for it?? Do I just start saving and do it? Is it even worth it? I don’t know. I really don’t.
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