No, I’m not on drugs of the illegal sort but the psychological kind. I am transitioning off a sleeping pill/mood stabilizer and onto a new one. Let me just say, it is hell. I don’t generally see people talk about this but it’s what I imagine actual detoxing feels like.

I am sweating and cold. My body aches everywhere. I did not sleep last night. I feel like I got run over by a truck.

I’m exhausted, shaky, and in pain. I just want it to stop. The whole reason I’m transitioning off the one medication is because it’s causing heart palpitations according to a recent EKG (go figure…) but all I want to do is down a pill and go to sleep so I don’t feel like this anymore. It’s the actual worst.

So for anyone that’s going or gone through this same thing, I feel you. Like literally, I feel your pain. And it sucks. But we’ll get through it, right?

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