Do you want me to tell you that I miss you?
That my soul aches for you in this secret place?
We can’t go there.
I don’t understand these feelings and I don’t want to.
My life has always been me,
trying to untie each emotion,
I’ve found you lose the depth of it
when you constantly try and analyze it all.
I just want to feel the sad, the lonely,
the lust, the terror, and the brilliance of everything.
down into my core, I want to feel it burning in me.
And when I leave this earth,
I want to be able to say that I truly felt.